As many of my readers know, I am completing a novel and screenplay called “Penelope In The Divine.” The main character is Penelope Ariel Quadangeli, a sensual woman born with special powers who journeys through the world of pole dancing and toward spiritual transcendence.
At the heart of the story is divinely activated sexuality, or what I now call “The Feminine Creation Vortex.” The Feminine Creation Vortex is the cosmic source of power, manifestation and magic, organic to all women. It is the intensity of energy that creates worlds and destroys them. It is the power which, when activated and channeled toward higher consciousness, will point you toward your divine path. How did I figure this out, you ask? Well, to be honest, I lived it.
I was raised believing that femininity is weak. It took a lifetime for me to accept that I am a striking and dynamic feminine force, and a lifetime to understand that my innate dynamism is not a directive to behave in a masculine way. In the meantime, I offended people and pushed men away. I didn’t understand why this kept happening until I understood what true feminine power is and how to wield it gracefully and with love.
It is true that male and female, Shiva and Shakti, yang and yin exist inside of everyone. Still, women and men have inborn qualities unique to their genders. For women, these qualities make up the sizzling voltage of the Feminine Creation Vortex.
Modern women are not taught who we really are and the potent magic we possess. We are taught that our sexuality is designed only for intercourse and this is not the true story. The full spectrum of feminine alchemy was suppressed thousands of years ago, so how can our society know anything different? I certainly didn’t. It took being close to death for me to wake up out of the stupor I had been living in.
In February, 2010 I started writing “A Pleasure Manifesto” at the beginning of the long and excruciating process of healing from severe adrenal fatigue. After three years of seeing a dozen practitioners, taking mountains of supplements, and experimenting with pharmaceutical drugs for relief, I fired everyone, trashed the supplements and decided to make pleasure and fun my number one priorities. This decision is what started me on the road to health and my manifesto stems from my commitment to change the world based on what I learned from that arduous experience.
By the time I fired the practitioners, I was rounding out the second draft of my novel. Looking back now, I realize that I began the novel in 2008 to wake up my long-dormant second chakra. For several reasons that I don’t have the luxury to go into here, by this time, my sexuality/sex drive/creativity had been shut down for years. I now understand that this was the root of my health issues, but I came to this conclusion on my own. What practitioner had the skills to diagnose that? Not a single one.
When a woman shuts down her sexuality, she shuts down her sacred spiritual/creative force. What does this mean? The Reader’s Digest version is that a woman’s health is tied into her sexuality, sensuality, beauty, magnetism and intuition, for starters. Regrettably, we take these qualities for granted and often label them unimportant.
I’ve been working with the Science of Personal Energetics and IlluminEssensce® for five years and I am the world’s first and only Personal Energetics Coach. What I learned from IlluminEssensce is that beauty is one of the highest vibrations on the planet. As IlluminEssensce founder Taylore B. Sinclaire says, “beauty is truth.” Women are internally geared to search for beauty, but when men, society and women’s own limiting beliefs restrict beauty, they are in conflict with the core of who they are. They end up stuck in a fruitless and never-ending search for aesthetic harmony, remaining unsatisfied and frustrated.
As I became an expert at dressing in my Harmonic Tone® and focused on my authentic beauty through IlluminEssensce, my long-suppressed creative drive re-awakened and led me to start “Penelope In The Divine.” As my creativity re-awakened, my entire second chakra vibrated out of its hibernation.
I created Penelope because she is what I’ve always wanted to be: powerful and comfortable within her sexuality, sensual, bodacious, self-assured, a dancer – my lifelong wish for myself. I did not know that I as I wrote about Penelope activating her Feminine Creation Vortex I was activating my own.
I was raised to believe that my body was a vessel for sin, rape and shame, so I spent most of my life suppressing my fervent sensuality. Strippers and exotic dancers have always fascinated me because they appear to be so fearless with their sexuality. I wanted to be like these women, without the emotional drama many of them seem to go through.
For years I looked for some kind of class to teach me what these women did so I could do it in the privacy of my own home. I wanted to liberate myself! When after years of searching I finally found a studio that could teach me those dancing skills, I dove right in. I had no idea that the experience would unequivocally change my life.
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